It Doesn’t Get Easier.

I hit the big 4-0 in 2017. It was not a milestone I was looking forward to. Reason being, I don’t *feel* 40 or at least I don’t feel like what I thought 40 would be like. Growing up 40 years old seemed so old. I heard family members complaining about various ailments, aches, and pains and I thought that’s what 40 should feel like and yea, I do have aches and pains but most of those have been caused by my years and years of inactivity and sedentary lifestyle. Years and years of overeating and not exercising coupled with some injuries I picked up during my time in the Army have slowed me down a bit and with age comes longer recovery times but all in all I’m in very good health. I want to see how far I can take my body and mind in 2018.

Disillusioned

When this song came out it really struck a chord with me. Here are the lyrics and the video is below.

Dopamine, on dopamine, on dopamine, on dopamine
We have been overrun by our animal desire
Addicts of the immediate keep us obedient and unaware
Feeding this mutation, this Pavlovian despair
We’ve become
Disillusioned
So we run
Towards anything glimmering
Time to put the silicon obsession down
Take a look around, find a way in the silence
Lie supine away with your back to the ground
Dis- and re-connect to the resonance now
You were never an island
Unique voice among the many in this choir
Tuning into each other, lift all higher
Hey, how long? Oh
Dopamine, on dopamine, on dopamine, on dopamine
Willingly been re-wired by clever agents within
Looping our reflections, our obsessions draw us in
Fix and fixation, no sentience beyond
We’ve becomeā€¦